My name’s Ben, I’m 17 years old and I live in the UK.
I have a girlfriend by the name of Ellie Bradbury who I love a great deal.
I’m a sixth-form student at Penistone Grammar.
I sort-of-kinda-badly play the guitar at the moment.
I take junk philosophy way too seriously, like my thought patterns are completely unique even at the age of 17, and everyone must know them…
I suffer from 2 major types of depression, panic attacks and abnormal anxiety build-ups.
My idol has to be John Green. Not because of all the ‘nerd-fighters’ he drives or any other cliché reasons like that, but because I read his book “Looking for Alaska” at a dark time in my life, and it saved me. Then, when I found out more about him, the love he has for his brother and wife, the memories he writes about, the intellect he modestly shares… He’s given me hope for life in general.
Things that interest me; Astrophysics, Literature - Modern/Post 19 hundreds mostly, Music, Reading intellectually challenging books, Myth, PC gaming, Drinking, Tea, Coffee, Photography and Sleep, mostly in that order.
General info; My full name’s Benjamin James Stallard, I was born January 26th 1995 on a snowy winters day - my family didn’t get to see me for some days I do believe due to the hospital being snowed in. I’ve been going out with my girlfriend for over a year now and would like to think that that’s not ever going to change. I used to be part of 2 sub-cultures between the ages of 11-15ish - The ‘chav’ and the ‘emo’ groups. Thankfully, I snapped out of these and have become far more ‘average’. I have a small number of genuine friendships, 2 or 3 at most, with the rest being more superficial in nature, or merely acquaintances forced to socialise out of boredom. When taking part in conversation, I tend to push people away with varied insults and attention-seeking actions, or become very anxious and clammed-up when dealing with people I don’t know.
I value intelligence or kind-heartedness most of all, closely followed by humor and the ability to remain calm. I’m typically apathetic and often flippant in nature, only responding to a situation when goaded or accused of something - but even then I normally just brush it off. Though, I do believe myself to be quite caring; I always have an ear to lend and will give a straight answer when required, or comforting words when necessary.
That’s covered most of what people have asked me so far, and what I wanted to include here at the moment, drop us an ask if I can add anything to this :)
